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A Letter For You
www.iluvislam.com
dihantar oleh: atiqah ali
editor: deynarashid
Assalamualaikum to my fellow sisters and brethrens, who will be one of the occupants in Jannah, insyaAllah.
First of all, this is a letter that I composed to all viewers. A letter full of my real thoughts and dwellings, a letter of hope and pain, a letter of almost the truth. So here goes nothing.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
Dear brothers and sisters,
The thing that triggered me to write such a letter is a post, that I read on someone’s blog. It reminded me, well, of about everything. Every single thing that I worked for, every single thing that I fought for. Yes, my story had started long enough, ever since I was back in high school.
2007....
My friend was fasting. I felt excited because I tried fasting too and it’s in the fasting month, yes, I remembered it well. I followed my Muslim friends where I woke up early for sahur and break my fast at Maghrib. I was doing it because I thought it would be fun and why not, since I was dead eager to know how it’s like.
Until one day, still in that month, my Muslim friend told me, though hesitant, something regarding the fact that I’m fasting. It broke my heart and it took me ages to recover and I nearly feel angered. Know what she told me?
“Ko tau tak yang ko puasa ni ko tak dapat pape? Macam kitorang, kitorang dapat pahala, tapi ko dapat lapar je.”
To which I retort “Xpela, aku saje je, takkan x boleh?”
Though the way she said it seems harsh, but it’s the truth.
And that got me thinking.
I thought about it every single night before I slept, to which I held up the palms of my hand facing my face and hoped silently that Allah hears my prayer, which is “Please Ya Allah, please grant only this, eventhough I’m still not a Muslim, please Ya Allah, please grant this prayer. I really want to be a Muslim. Ease my journey towards becoming a Muslim.”
And afterwards I would cry, because I was really hoping, that somehow, Allah let it easy for me, and grant that prayer.
And Alhamdulillah, now, I AM a Muslim.
Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah.. And I will never stop saying it, because I was really thankful.
The feeling was like, as if someone just saved you from a tragic death, or from drowning. Yes, I was drowning back then. I was flailing my arms desperately, for someone to save me, and Allah did. SubhanAllah...
I was saved, my brothers and sisters, I was saved.
Dear brothers and sisters,
Do you not know how much pain it caused me? How many tears are shed because of this journey I chose? Do you?
It was so difficult for me to trust the right person, because not everyone can understand. I was pained when you left me when I’m in need. I was stressed up when I couldn’t get my iqra’ right. You say, be patient, take it slowly. But if you are in my position, how can I take it slowly?
I need to know everything in a short period of time because once I’m back at home, it’s over. I have to go undercover even with my own family and I couldn’t learn anymore, not live like I do here.
Usrah? That is going to be impossible once I’m back to my family’s side. I felt oppressed enough when I couldn’t wear the hijab and how do you think I would feel when I can’t do the rest??
To this, I have something to say, appreciate your freedom of performing your prayers, cherish your jamaah prayers with your family, value the freedom of wearing the hijab because there are other people who has great difficulty even to say Bismillah in front of their own family.
I felt pity to those who had the knowledge but don’t apply them.
I felt sick when I think of them who claimed to be free when they don’t want to abide.
It might anger some people when I wrote this, but keep in mind, this is my blog, this is a piece of my mind, and I have been keeping this inside long enough.
I hope, this post might open your eyes on the revelation of the anxiety that feeds on me day by day. You say I’m cruel when I kept this a secret from my parents. Cruel? I’m not doing it to save myself, I just can’t bring myself to hurt them. Hurting them is the last thing that I want to do. Only Allah knows how tempted I am to tell them, each day, but the thing holding me back is the thought of my parents being hurt and sad because of me, their first child and only daughter.
Do you know how much I hate myself for keeping this a secret? And you tell me that I’m heartless and I was being selfish. To calm myself, I kept thinking, only Allah knows, only Allah knows, over and over again.
Offended? Think of how much I was offended first.
For those, my true friends, who helped me a lot, who didn’t leave me when I’m in need, who stayed by my side when I’m in my most vulnerable state, thank you for not leaving me all alone.
Ever since I’ve embraced Islam, I never felt this way. This feeling is, how should I say it, is very genuine. It feels like pure love. What I meant is that, I never thought that I could love somebody this way.
Islam taught me that love isn’t only meant to be all that lovey-dovey stuff, but it taught me about ukhuwwah, it taught me about love amongst Muslims, and it helped me a lot.
Ever since I became a Muslim, my relationship with my friends became better, and I’ve opened my eyes to see that there are a lot of people who are willing to help me for the sake of the religion. I’ve never felt this way and plus, my relationship between my family members improved and I was so thankful for that.
I never thought that one day, I would be talking about mundane things with my mum, because before, if I were to call home, our conversation would normally revolve around my academic well-beings, my financial status and all that serious stuff. My family were never like real families. We’re academic-based and my parents were so strict about it.
But now, ever since I learnt that Islam taught us that we should obey our parents, never raise your voice when talking and etc., and I applied it whenever I’m having conversation with my mum and my mum kind of, soften up a little bit and started being buddies with her only daughter, that is me.
I felt so blessed with this gift, that is the journey of being a Muslim. I never met people that love each other, not because of money, not because they’re pretty and all that, but because of Allah, and that amazes me most. I was so overwhelmed with my founding that I felt calm and tranquil.
The thing that I enjoy most of being a Muslimah is that :
1) I get to go to usrah
2) I get to go to “tautan ukhuwwah” programmes
3) I get to wear the hijab and be protected from unauthorized eyes
4) I get to fast and experience the happy sensation of breaking fast afterwards
5) Etc. Etc. Etc.
I love my new life, I love the new me. Yet, somehow, certain people can’t resist of making my life miserable. Well, that’s life. But I have a new target in life now.
Last but never the least,
Dear brothers and sisters, especially those who are also in the journey towards Jannah,
To those who worked their bones just for Allah, keep it up. It is people like you that inspire the others to follow your lead, eventually.
I have high respect to those who can still take care of themselves, be it physically or mentally, but most importantly, spiritually. With that, let’s all become a professional Muslim and insyaAllah, one day, one of us or more might bring change to this world polluted with secularism, corruption and hedonism.
To end this post, this a special song that I dedicated to all of you...
Kembali by Far East..
Ya Allah...
Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Pemurah,
Terangilah ku dengan nur iman-Mu,
Hanya Engkau tempat aku berserah,
Mohon maghfirah di dalam syahdu...
Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Pengasih,
Ampunilah segala dosaku,
Laksana buih di laut memutih,
Hanyut ditelan gelombang nafsu...
Hari-hari yang telah aku lalui,
Inginku tinggalkan terus bersemadi,
Ingin aku, kembali kepada fitrah insani,
Tak sanggupku jelajahi rimba duniawi,
Bebaskanlah diriku dari dibelenggu,
Dosa noda nafsu durjana...
Terimalah taubatku Ya Allah,
Pimpinlah daku ke jalan redhaMu,
Moga sinarMu terangi hidupku,
Di dalam kegelapan...
Aku kan kembali padaMu rabbi,
MenghadapMu Ya Rabbul Izzati,
Segala ketentuanku pasrahkan,
Di hujung penghayatan...
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on December 23 2009 11:06:51
alhamdulilah anti telah terima hidayah dari ALLAH yang esa,
ana rasa sungguh bersyukur ada orang yang dapat hidayah daripadanya walaupun bukan dari seorang yang islam akhirnya menjadi islam. subahanallah
artikel anti memberi makna pada diri saya... bahawa islam adalah agama yang sempurna oleh itu semoga kita dibawah lindungan dariNya.
insya-ALLAH... anti teruskan berusra, kerana ia penting untuk mentarbiahkan diri kita yang sering kali terleka dan lalai... |
on December 23 2009 11:49:29
bismillah..
letterz yg best..
muhasabah diri..
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on December 23 2009 12:08:52
WOW |
on December 23 2009 12:14:07
berusahalah mencari Hidayah Allah.. kau akan temui juga nikmatnya... |
on December 23 2009 12:55:16
Assalamualikum...
Congratulations... u've choosed the right path of life... (^_^)
Alhamdulillah 'ala ni'matiLLah~ |
on December 23 2009 13:11:36
sadis sungguh..
so for those who born as a muslim...please appreciate it..
dont just being muslim in identity card but be a real muslim.pure muslim.
so pity to hear those who still cant find the right path. lets pray together may Allah make a way for them.. |
on December 23 2009 13:54:58
Now, ask ourself, ARE WE A SPINELESS MUSLIM?
And keep the question for ourself. |
on December 23 2009 15:02:39
indahnya mndapat hidayahNya |
on December 23 2009 15:41:55
alhamdulillah..teruskan perjuangan anda.. |
on December 23 2009 16:00:50
As a born muslim, reading this has inspired me. Im going through some difficulties of my own, The girl I love has left me, many people made bad Duaa's that her and I don't be together. We were not strong on Dheen, so this came between us. I am trying to make it right, not just with her, but with Almighty Allah.
I wish and I pray she comes back and we can get married, as i love her for the pleasure of Allah.
My name is Yaseen and her name is Fatima.
Your story has made me sad as I could practice freely, but did not, now I have lost a good woman.
I am finding my way back to the path of Islam. not for her but for myself.
I ask for anyones Duaa to keep me on the path of Islam and if Allah could grant my desires and bring her back. Insha ALLAH.
I will keep you in my Duaas. you are an inspiration, May Allah bestow His blessings upon YOU. |
on December 23 2009 16:23:47
Sama2 lah kita mendekatkan diri padanya...
Wlu lahir sebagai islam....tpi imannya masih jauh dri perkataan sempurna...n your letter touch my heart...tahniah sgt2...moga hidup saudari dilindungiNYA...DIA yg satu..DIA yg tak pernah tinggalkan kita...wlu kita seringkali menolak nya ketepi...
Pda DIA mohon dikuatkan hati...Sama2lah kita mencari sinar itu ... |
on December 23 2009 18:00:00
manusia ini kdng2 berubah2................... |
on December 23 2009 18:12:19
ana faham dgn prasaan saudari dimana kta harus mnyembunyikan sesuatu, menyiksa hati kita, memendamkan sgalanya, terasa keseorangan dan hanya ada Allah di samping kita. semuanya demi menjaga hati orang yg kita sayang...
tabah dan berdoa lah agar mereka mudah menerima kenyataaan bhawa saudari adalah seorg muslim. yakinkan lah mereka, saudari xkan pernah melupakan pengorbanan dan kasih syang mreka terhadap saudari. saudari tetap akn tinggal bersma mereka krana hnya mereka ibu bapa saudari.
beritahu lah mereka apabila saudari sudah bersedia |
on December 23 2009 18:53:42
Allahumma salli ‘ala sayyidina mustafa
‘ala habibika nabiika mustafa
I love my new life
thankful to Allah.
sis, may Allah bless u.amin
whatever don't despair and never loose hope, bcoz Allah always by yourside |
on December 23 2009 19:08:24
saya kagum dgn semangat kamu  |
on December 23 2009 21:03:13
thanks for the letter... it really inspired me and it did open my eyes... as a born muslim... i should be thankfull not just by saying but by my did... i should... yeah i should...
jom kita sama2 bersyukur di atas kurni nya y x terhingga... jgn la kita alpa dan lali dgn nikmatnya...
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on December 23 2009 21:13:38
only Allah knows...
im reading in tears couldnt stop falling...
it is really an unforgetful story...
i hope..one day..one time..even it is just one second...
u're family can aacept it...and more they can continue their life also in Islam..
may the best come for u...
..trust urself..trust Allah...as u said as u think as we always think....only HE knows...
remember..
"ther's no test that Allah gave to his servant...that his servant cant do it..."
amin..
wallahua'lam
wassalam |
on December 23 2009 21:26:40
 this lovely article had taught me to be thankful as being born as a muslim.. |
on December 23 2009 22:02:41
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on December 24 2009 00:08:34
*assalamualaikum
subhanallah allahuakbar....
im proud 2 be muslim n im thankful datz u r
given datz nur from Allah...
only Allah knowing all happened in diz world...
subhanallah..
im hope u will be da pure muslim
datz always at His way.. insyaAllah..*comfort**comfort* |
on December 24 2009 08:32:26
alhamdulillah...
welcome sis...
we love your spirit!!
caiyuk2..!! |
on December 24 2009 16:32:20
ada sorang ulamak besar berkata..
apabila kamu melihat kepada non muslim..
janganlah kamu fikir, kamu lbih naik daripadanya..
boleh jadi apabila dya mnjadi muslim,
dya lbih baik daripada kamu...
kerna dirinya yg suci daripada dosa..
sedangkan dirimu penuh dosa...
syukur alhamdulillah buat enti...
enti lbih mulia daripada kami yang muslim keturunan..
itulah kabar gembira kepada non muslim... |
on December 24 2009 18:32:46
thank to Allah for giving u Hidayah in ur life..
keep it carefully.. |
on December 24 2009 20:28:24
dgn hidayahNYA
proud 2 be a muslim..
n thanks 4 da letter..
sgt2 berguna dan menginsafkan.. |
on December 24 2009 22:12:02
make me thinkin' of sumthn'............. |
on December 25 2009 11:41:55
salam..alhamdulillah..moga2 perjlanan kita dipermudahkanNYA..amin...
bngkitlah..wlu pada ketika itu kita dalam keadaan yg sedang berputus asa sekalipun..
insyaAllah..Allah S.W.T. akn sentiasa bntu kita..
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on December 26 2009 22:58:33
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on December 27 2009 17:06:07
Rasa sedih bila bace sampai: “Ko tau tak yang ko puasa ni ko tak dapat pape? Macam kitorang, kitorang dapat pahala, tapi ko dapat lapar je.”
Bukan terkejut. Langsung tak terkejut sebab realiti memang sama macam tu. Pesanan buat mereka yang berkawan dengan orang bukan Islam: Jaga apa yang korang cakap dengan dorang.
Itu silap kita. Jadi, sama-samalah betulkan. |
on December 27 2009 22:47:08
sme2la kite mendoakn agr
ALLAH sntiasa melindungi kte semua..
sy brase sgt bersyukur dlahirkan sbg muslim tp..
sy sgt sdih apabila keutuhan n ketakwaan iman dlm diri,,
msih senipis kulit bawang,,,
sme2la kite berjuang ke jln ALLAH..
nway..
thanx 4da letter... |
on December 27 2009 23:09:12
Salam anti.. trima kasih atas article ini..
tahniah kerana telah memeluk islam..
article anti ni telah benar2 menarik hati ana..
Insaf dan taubat lahir..
alhamdulillah.. semoga kita sama2 dpt memantapkan iman kita insyaALLAH.. |
on December 28 2009 02:50:30
"I get to wear the hijab and be protected from unauthorized eyes"
I really like this sentence... it touches me the most... thanks!
I hope that Allah will guide you till you can meeet Him in Jannah, insyaallah.. |
on December 29 2009 00:46:22
terima kasih buat rakan sy nur farah syakirah yg telah revert kpd islam pd nov 2008.
beliau yg telah menulis letter ini meluahkan isi hatinya.. semoga ia dpt menjadi pengajaran bersama.
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on December 29 2009 13:17:31
allhamdulillah...nangis saya ble bca artikel ni....bayangkan...seseorang yg mengaku islam tpi terpaksa menyembunyi imannya,dgn org yg tersyg atau halangan2 lain....berbanding sestengah yg mengaku islam tapi xpraktikkan dalam hidup walau tanpa halangan..sgt2 rugi..nauzubillah... |
on December 29 2009 15:39:27
i am happy for you n keep faghting for islam...it is soo peaceful mhen you know islam deeply.. |
on December 29 2009 23:12:41
terharu bce cte ni..
sama2 kte mnsbh dri.. |
on December 29 2009 23:12:46
......... syukur yg teramat pd Allah dgn kehadiran saudara baru Islam... moge hidayah Allah sentiase menyinari hidupmu dan m'jd penyuluh jalan kehidupan........ |
on December 30 2009 15:49:12
Salam...sggug hebat..insya Allah syurga menanti anda disne.. |
on December 31 2009 09:40:20
Allah luvs u..
wish dat i can be better than b4,n rili implement "ISlam is da way of lyf"
thx fo sharing diz article |
on January 08 2010 19:18:45
mabruk 'alaik |
on January 23 2010 10:31:15
may Almighty Allah bless u always sis
terus istiqamah with ur new life n with a dua' 4 ur parents
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